Day #4 kicking my booty butt, NO ENERGY! ~By: Steph

Hi Friends.  I feel as though I’ve been trapped on a dessert island with no water, no food that tastes good, and a thousand screaming kids.  I mean you know it’s going to be a good daycare day when, it starts with vomiting, and ends with a power outage.  Do you feel my pain??? Come on. I AM NOT just being whiney and carby crabby. Okay, all in all it wasn’t a bad day and I’m feeling pretty good about my ability to reset right now.  It’s just more fun to whine about things some days.  Ask my kids!

I am on day #4 of kicking the added sugars and empty carbs.  I only need about 8 more days like this to assure myself that I’m in control of the Carb Monster.  He’s scary and follows me around trying to shove toast in my mouth.  Ooohhh, toast with cinnamon and sugar!  Ugh, I must stop giving the Carb Monster any ideas!

Anyhow, I just thought I’d post a sample of what a good day looks like for me.  Remember I am a sleever and I’m 4 years out.  My portions aren’t huge but, they aren’t teensy either. I definitely embrace the idea of cocktail forks and appetizer plates to keep my eyes from telling my brain that I need more food. If I find something I really enjoy, I will keep going back to it for several days. Then one day I will look at it and think, “No way am I going to eat this again!”  My lunch and breakfast are often the same all week. I am all for carbs from natural sources; dairy, nuts, fruit, veggies, legumes, etc.

Day #1

B- (not pictured) 1 scrambled egg, 1 oz steak and salsa.

L- Turkey rolled up with a Laughing Cow light wedge, 1 stalk of celery, 1 TBL Jalapeno artichoke dip, and 3 grape tomatoes.

S- 1/2 cup watermelon.

D- 3 oz chicken, 1/2 oz cheddar, 1/2 slice thin cut bacon, 5 grape tomatoes, and 1 cup of lettuce, with 1 TBL light ranch.

S- Frozen, PBfit & Triple Zero Greek yogurt bites.

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Day #2

B- Iced Protein Coffee.

L- Celery stalk with Jalapeno Artichoke dip, 2 slices turkey breast rolled up with a Laughing Cow light wedge, 5 blackberries.

S- Leftover salad with 2 oz grilled chicken.

D- Taco salad; 2.5 oz 9% ground beef, 1/2 oz cheddar, tomato, green onion, 1 cup lettuce, 1 TBL light sour cream mixed with Spicy Ranch seasoning.

S- More PBfit/Triple Zero, frozen bites.

This is the day I totally caved and had a TBL of creamy peanut butter right before bed 😦

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Day #3

B- Iced Protein Coffee.

L- Leftover taco salad.

S- Celery, dip, blackberries, turkey, Laughing Cow light wedge and a few pepperoni chips (1/2 svg Hormel Turkey Pepperoni laid out on a paper towel and microwaved 45 seconds).  This was the day I was super snacky and nibbled on this plate throughout the whole day.

D- Sundried tomato pesto chicken breast with 1 oz part skim mozzarella, and 1/3 an ear of corn on the cob.

S- 1/2 container Triple Zero Greek yogurt, 1 TBL PBfit, and 1 tsp Hershey’s sf syrup, frozen in a little Dixie cup.

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Day #4

B- Protein Iced Coffee.

L- Turkey sandwich made on lengthwise slices of cucumber and rolled up like a sushi roll.

S- About 6 homemade sugar free Japanese style pickled cucumbers.

D- No noodle zucchini lasagna made with 9% ground beef, low fat ricotta, part skim mozzarella, mushrooms, spinach, onions, garlic, and low sugar marinara.

S- Triple Zero peach yogurt.

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I’m satisfied with the changes I’ve made this week and the fact that I’m staying on the right track, with my eating.  I would like to go roll around in the leftover garlic bread from last night’s dinner but…I guess that might rub some carbs off on me.  I would like to eat some crackers so that this headache would go away.  More than both of those things, I’d like to continue being healthy and liking myself a bit more than I used to. 😉

Completely off topic here…You know you’ve been married a while and you’re just generally a bit too weird when you announce, “I am the Getting Rid of Kids Ninja, fear me!  Daycare kids gone. Our kids not in the room.  Bwahahahaha.” and you get absolutely no reaction from your husband as he stares at his phone. Is he now numb to my infinite charm and wit?  Naw…couldn’t be!

Hugs and good choices to you all!

 

 

 

 

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Carbs? Who needs em? ~By: Steph

20160614_094639This is me enjoying my protein iced coffee. Yummy, better than any toast or crackers. Carbs, who needs carbs?  Not me.  I do daycare.  No stress eating there. Easy peasy. See…I didn’t get struck by lightening! Also, remind me not to drink in public.  Does my forehead always wrinkle up like that when I drink??? Why has this never been pointed out to me before.

Okay, I love my job.  I love my kiddos.  They make me laugh, keep me on my toes, drive me crazy and at times exhaust me.  Making meals for mini noise makers and serving up snacks, is tough when you’re trying to eat right and not graze.  Maybe if I fed them seafood, liver, lima beans, and canned peas, I wouldn’t be tempted to sample a bite or two. I totally see the kids responding well to that menu. Anyhow, today, that is my struggle.  I’m not hungry, I’m truly not.  I just want to eat.  Instead here I am blogging during naptime to keep myself from messing up my day!

Have you ever noticed that your kids push your limits right when you are on the brink of snapping?  The second day without carbs is definitely NOT the morning to push your mother!  Kids got up this morning, ran on time, left for their summer program. Then 5 mins. later I get the call. My son is asking me to load the daycare kids up and bring him his glasses that he forgot.  My response was, “I can’t I have kids here and 2 more on the way.  I need to be home for drop offs.” I was calm. I was nice.  I told him that they could walk back and grab them since he was still close to home.  Yeah. Then he did it.  “Thanks Mom, never mind I guess I don’t need them even though I can’t see anything in class without them.”, was his response. Right before he hung up on me.  Whew…deep calming breaths.  Who pays for the phone you just hung up on me with? Who do you think you are being a smart@$$ with me when I am not the one who left their glasses at home?  Where are you going to live when I kick your little butt out?  Let’s hear you say, “never mind I guess I don’t need them”, when I set all your video games on fire with a can of Aqua Net and a bbq lighter! Hmm…I think I was justified in my irritation.  Maybe, maybe not.  However, I also may have been a tad more fired up than I would have been if I’d had a mouthful of crackers.  By the way, he’s grounded from his phone until he learns to be respectful on it. Don’t fear, no bonfires and homeless son. GOOOOO MOM.  Wait, am I the only one cheering for myself?  Oh well.  His sister will think it’s a great plan.  Usually it’s her that’s grounded. My little angels.

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Yesterday went really well.  I ate healthy and made good choices.  Scrambled egg and a small piece (about an ounce) of steak for breakfast. Celery, jalapeno artichoke dip, grape tomatoes, and turkey for lunch. 1/2 cup of watermelon for snack.  Grilled chicken salad for dinner. Frozen PbFit and banana Triple Zero bites for evening snack. 16 cups of water to round out the day.

Still trying to decide on a dinner tonight but, 2 protein coffee shakes, the rest of my salad from last nights dinner, some watermelon and maybe another yogurt later, are on today’s menu.

20160614_075805Day 3 is usually my rough day when I’m kicking the empty carbs.  Wish me luck tomorrow.  If you pray, I’d appreciate a prayer for strength.  I know this sounds awful but, I’m dreading Bible study on Thursday.  They always include a dessert.  I’m usually good and bring my own low carb dessert.  I’m not even in a good spot for a low carb, sugar free, dessert at this point.  I need a couple of weeks without that type of food before I can reintroduce healthier versions of them.

I suppose I should go eat my salad while these kiddos are sleeping.  If I don’t I’ll be holding babies while trying to shove lettuce in my mouth, while they try to snatch it out!

Hugs to you all and here’s to fresh starts and people who understand.

 

 

 

 

 

Hard Times? Yep…I’m back again. ~By: Steph

 

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I hate that I come back here when I’m struggling.  I guess this blog is my subconscious pep talk. Today is day one of back on the wagon.  Repeat after me…Stephanie Kathleen, empty carbs ARE NOT YOUR FRIEND!  Thanks, I feel duly chastised.  I let them sneak in when my emotions are running high and they make me feel loved. Really?  Is that how I feel loved?  I have a Savior who died for me, a husband who honestly values me more than I often value myself, children who love me so much that they drive me insane…er…insaner???…that could be a word, a family who loves me and friends I can turn to.  Nope, every time I try to keep it all locked up and feed it carbs to keep it quiet.  The thing is, when that momentary emotional breakdown passes…I still keep eating carbs!

So, here I am once again telling you I screwed up and now I’m trying to make it all go away.  You don’t see that pile of nonsense I swept under the rug, do you?  The thing is, as well as I can put on the, “Nothings wrong here, nothing to see here, move along.” face.  That pile of nonsense is still there. The evidence is on the scale. Well the evidence is more on my thighs and tummy but, you catch my drift.  You can’t eat crappy foods and graze all day without consequences.  In this case, the consequences are 10 lbs I don’t want to hang out with.

I suppose the reason I keep coming back here to blog my failures, is to celebrate.  Why? Who celebrates their failures?  Me I guess.  If I’m back here blogging through my struggle, that means that I haven’t given in.  I haven’t thrown in the towel. I am determined to persevere and change my situation.  The day I decide to stop coming, “back again” and admitting my mistakes as I dust myself off, is the day I quit trying.  I pray that day never comes.  Maybe some of you will get tired of reading.  Maybe you will think, here we go again. Maybe that’s not what matters to me.  Maybe I do this so that I can help not only myself get back to my plan but, help the other people who have fallen and want to pick themselves up.  I know how alone you can feel and how you can be so abusive in your thoughts about yourself that you can’t fathom why anyone else values you at all.  You’re never alone.  My first stop is always God, then the people I’m closest to, and then it’s you.  Whoever may be reading this and needing to push through a hard moment will know that we have to keep fighting the fight, one day at a time.

It is 12:03 on day one, I am already sick of protein.  I want a damn cracker!  Hmm…have I mentioned I am crabby when I go off of carbs?  I know you’d never guess from my cheery typing. I have had egg, meat and then some more meat so far.  Looking forward to dinner.  I am making a, Chicken Bacon Ranch Salad.  I will use Greek yogurt with my ranch mix.  Grilled chicken breast, 1/2 slice of crumbled bacon, the big red tomato from my garden (I’m so excited!), a quarter of an avocado, and some lettuce and onion.  I love the idea of the lettuce, tomato and avocado.  I seriously can’t wait for them. I guess I CAN wait but, I don’t wanna. I also promise to be good and eat the chicken first. No really, pinkie swear!

I am currently on my third, 32 oz. cup of water today.  That is another thing I let slide when I’m eating poorly. I mean come on…if I filled up by drinking all of my water, where would my crackers go?  Just an FYI, Wheat Thins are a delicious, evil, member of the carb family. They seem sweet and innocent but, don’t say I didn’t warn ya!

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Isn’t she lovely? That’s a bad picture, it’s not her good side, the lighting was wrong, but, she’s absolutely perfect!!!

The weirdest thing about my “falling off the wagon” is that I LOVE healthy, fresh, foods.  I don’t know why I turn to packaged junk when I feel bad. I make delicious and healthy meals all of the time.  I love to experiment and find ways to lighten up dishes.  However, when I’m in carb mode I don’t even want to cook.

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Chicken “Nachos”

A couple of examples of things I have made lately. Chicken Nachos; 1 pound  grilled chunks of chicken breast with a chile spiced rub, 2 slices of crumbled bacon, 2 oz. of shredded sharp cheddar/Monterey Jack cheese, baked butternut squash cubes with a spice rub, and some green onion.  That was enough food for my husband and I to eat 2 meals.

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BBQ stuffed meatball and Caprese Salad in a steamed zucchini boat.

Simple half chicken, half lean beef meatballs basted with sf bbq sauce stuffed with a 1/4 oz cube of mozzarella cheese and wrapped in 1/3 slice of bacon, then baked.  Fresh mozz., grape tomatoes from the garden, fresh basil, and a little balsamic, served inside of a hallowed out and steamed zucchini half. 2 pounds of meat made 16 meatballs.

 

I am perfectly capable of feeding myself properly.  Why don’t I?

Hmm, I do want to point out that those meals were made weeks apart.  I don’t use bacon in every meal I prepare.  Says the lady making Chicken Bacon Ranch Salad, for dinner. 🙂

I end this with a plea to anyone who reads this.  This weekend there was a mass shooting in Florida.  No matter what your beliefs are, what your political affiliation, how you feel about people’s lifestyle choices, please be kind.  I have seen some of the ugliest and most hate filled rants on social media the past 24 hours. When did we become a country full of people who only feel compassion for others, IF THEY SHARE OUR BELIEFS?  It used to be, if you saw someone hurting you hurt for them, you didn’t judge them and spew your ugly hatred.  As a Christian I am so saddened that some of the hate flowing is being touted as, “in the name of God”.  Please realize that just because, some small sect is twisting God’s Word, are louder and more public, that doesn’t mean they speak for the majority. My heart hurts for those who lost partners, sons, daughters, friends, and loved ones.  My prayers are with them. Division will only make the wounds deeper.  If you pray, then please pray for those who are hurting and in need of comfort today.