A good dude I know (Let’s call him Zang) brought up an interesting and important issue I am dealing with and will need to more in the future. This talking about stuff is a good concept by the way. (wonder who invented it) To be honest I hadn’t thought about it at all so despite experiencing it without knowing I had no idea how to deal with it.
I suppose if I am going to be a part of a blog with an excellent person who has already told some “secrets” I should be an open book as the cool kids say.
The question was about the mental health issues in losing a bunch of weight. (In my case almost half my body and nearly 2/3 by goal) Also, how to deal with being treated differently by the opposite sex.
The first part is a creepy thing for me. I appreciate the nice things people say more than I can express. The thing is in the moment I do not like it. I do not really know why but in thinking about it this afternoon I have one thought and this is the best I can do right now. I think I am embarrassed personally about putting myself in this position in the first place. So any credit given to me for partially correcting these issues is something I do not feel I am worthy of.
Too much attention just makes me feel uptight and uneasy. I want to talk about stuff on my own terms for sure. The thing is that is not how life always works. I am doing this radio show on the internet for fun. My friend who does it with me brought my story up on air and I could not change the subject fast enough. There wasn’t even any thought involved in it. I just needed to get out of the topic and did so immediately. There is something to this issue and I need to work on it.
The thing with the ladies is an entirely different situation. This is surely more avoidance but right now it is the truth. I have yet to acquire enough confidence in myself personally to even consider anything like that to this point. When/if it gets to that point I am sure I will be awkward, super awkward and unimpressive at the start. Thankfully I am a good student in social situations.
I am aware that I am skirting the issues in regards to this topic in large part but giving it some thought at all is a hell of a start in my eyes.
More to come……………..-Clint